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voicesinmyhead - You Look Away
I try not to let my jealousies of the past get in the way of the way things are in the here and now, I really do. I try to fight down the insecurities and the times in the past I have been hurt because I know that this is different and we're not like that.

We're different. We're good together and we're strong.

But, there are times that the old feelings rise up and the jealousies come into play.

"Tamsin... what if John comes back?"

You ducked your head and looked away when I asked you that and all of my old worries came back to plague at me.

It makes me want to hold on to you and love you and never let you go.

It makes me want to try to make sure that he never returns... that he never comes back to take you away from me.

I know, I'm supposed to be better than that, right? I'm supposed to be above such petty jealousies and worries.

But I'm afraid.

I'm scared of losing you... losing you to the one person that hurt you so much that I couldn't stand to see it.

What do I do when a simple question causes you to look away and not answer?

I do what I can. I stay beside you and I love you...

And I don't ask that question ever again.



Muse: Kitty "Shadowcat" Pryde
Fandom: X-Men (and AUs)
Word Count: 234